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1. I wish its already May so that I can party with my high school friends and do this Baywatch theme dekada ’80. I can’t wait to see everyone in their bikinis and trunks. And we all have something to remember when we turn 40.
2. I wish I live in Manila so that I can have botox every month. Dahil dream ko maging robot. Hahaha!
3. I wish I can travel every month so that I won’t get bored. O sige, whisper with wings na lang, para lipad lang ng lipad.
4. I wish I will be forever young so that I don’t have to suffer from may rayuma (arthritis) when I dance all night. Feeling sweet 16 kasi.
5. I wish my friends wont get tired of taking care of me, especially when we are out drinking and partying, and suddenly gotta to go…kailangan bang ikabit ang toilet sa likod ko? Daiper ang tawag dun.
6. I wish some people would stop judging me because I didn’t join American Idol ok. But if it means helping others to have a life….Go Ahead! I have so much to give naman e. Hahaha!
7. I wish people stop whining how their life sucks. Life will never be beautiful, that is why they invented Botox.
8. I wish Taco will often bathed himself often because he really stinks. Saan kaya siya nagmana?
9. I wish nanny Joy will shave her hair on the legs kasi it’s so kadire. Hahaha!
10. I wish Scott would agree that we sleep in different bedroom so that I can harass him every night.
11. I wish I can really push myself this time to follow my dreams…to be a famous porn star…hahaha! Nope, of course, to be a interior decorator. Ende na lang puro someday. Nakakapagod na rin teh.
12. I wish there is an outlet malls in Singapore, so that I would love to stay here forever.
13. I wish I will get my 2 carats diamond ring soon. Kaya nga wish e. Huwag na magreklamo.
14. I wish I can master the art of having a flawless make up and not looking like someone punch me after a night of drinking and partying. Ende na kakatuwa ang mukhang vampire.
15. I wish I would stop smoking because I’m really beginning to hate the smell and the effect it does to my skin. Plastic!
16. I wish I could enjoy wearing my 3 inches heels without having a crouching tiger toenails after.
17. I wish I could turn back the time and be as healthy as before. But then again, thanks to my operation, without the gallbladder, I don’t have to worry ever about getting fat.
18. I wish Scott would allow me to style him. Seriously, the 80′s jeans and plaids is so american farmer…hahahaha!
19. I wish Tico hair will grow back again. I miss those days when she is perfectly beautiful. But then again, you can’t have everything.
20. I wish people in general would learn to live life and just be happy. Bitterness is next to ugliness. Promise!
21. I wish, I would have the strength and courage like my mother-in-law. In spite of what she is going through right now. Not once I heard her complain.
22. I wish, I have Scott character who remains calm and sensible in spite of what mom is going through right now. If I was on his position, I probably become overly drama.
23. I wish I will have a bigger butt…(Coming soon!!!)
24. I wish there would be no more earthquake. Seriously, I’m freaking out. I hope this is not the end.
25. I wish I could drink like crazy and never suffer from hang over. Err…maybe I should drink wisely.
26. I wish all my friends and love ones their wish will come true.
27. I wish my plants, especially my herbs won’t keep dying. I know, I need to spend more time with you but I also need to work so that I can afford to buy more of your sister and brothers.
28. I wish my younger sisters won’t go through a lot of hardship to find their destiny.
29. I wish my parents are less dramatic…but then again…life is boring without their dramas.
30. I wish, I can travel soon to Cambodia. Really…really want!
31. I wish there is an easy way to make money. Damn!  I am too old to be a prostitute or a porn star.
32. I wish, we can travel to Europe soon.
33. I wish, when there are days when the sky is gray and the plants are brown and I need a moment of silence, my sugar won’t go up. It’s not fun when I can’t even eat my comfort food and I am feeling blue. Teh, paminsan minsan nalulungkot rin ako. Ende ako parati nakavalium.
34. I wish more opportunities to make money so I can support my cats lifestyle. Sisihin ba ang pusa?
35. I wish I will never lost my humor in every tragedy and challenge that comes through my way.
36. I wish my once a year big event…wont just happen once a year. Hmnnn…ok, maybe too much wishing already. Alam nyo yan mga vaklush ang malaking show ko. Hehehehe!
37. I wish on my 37th birthday, I will have a lot more of diamonds, fabulous body, shoes, bags and be more healthy so that I can enjoy all these. Sorry, I won’t ask for world peace, since I am not running for Miss Universe or wish for everyone’s happiness. Haler, it’s my own birthday wish. Kanyang-kanya wish lang yan. Wala naman sinabi ang taas na bawal ang maraming wish. Kaya, I am allowed to have a selfish wish…hehehehe!

Honestly, I have so much to be thankful. I am turning 37 soon and having this, so called remarkable life. Not because it’s perfect. Hello! Anu ka, adik? Simply, because I stop worrying, and trying to be someone I am not. Mahirap maging wonder woman neng. Although, there are certain things I wished I have known when I was younger but haler, mageksena regrets ba itoh? Feeling kasali sa telenovela…Honestly, I had those moments too. That I wished I had done things differently. However, I realize (paulit-ulit na lang itong emote) that I would have never be as happy and contented as I am right now kahit walang “full time career”. When you’re earning less, needs becomes lesser.  Ang plastic ko noh? Hahahaha! This year, I learned to appreciate simple (define simple?) things in life and certain matters are just the way the are. So, there is really no point of getting bothered that is not a matter of life and death. Yes, I still have problems, issues, failures and stress. Kung si Darna nga, nanga-ngarag ako pa kaya? Life is a matter of accepting what you have right now and embracing it. Bow!

One must start a new journey to begin a new chapter. It’s already March 2011, as usual it took me 100 decade again to update my blog. Life, wasn’t that easy last year. With so many health  issues, I thought, they needed me in heaven…or hell (?). Hehehehe! But since, masamang damu ang lola mo, marami pang goats and cows ang makikinabang sa akin. Sometimes, I wonder too where I get all my super power. Haler, ano akala mo sa akin si Jose Rizal Statue sa Luneta….cemento? Of course, I had a lot moments….duh?

It was August of last year, I decided to take control of my life. It wasn’t an easy option. Kahit magpabotox pa ako araw-araw, ende na gaganda ang pakikiramdam ko. Feeling ko araw-araw ako si Linda Blair..nasasaniban na kung anu-ano. I swear, the pain was so excruciating that I thought it won’t ever end. But I guess, God is watching me. I must have done something right in my life, that he sent me an angel.

Yes, I know. It’s also a big shock for me…like being confirmed I am no longer a lesbo but a bi….hahaha! Gosh! Welcome to my new life and I don’t know where I am heading…except of course a full time slave of my dickhead husband….hehehe! Well, since I was given no choice and even if I dance naked…I embrace life as it is now…..Fine, it’s not easy ok. Gosh! I work 7 days a week now.

They say change is the most difficult to face…because you have to let go of your fear. But we need challenge in our life so go lang. After I was diagnosed with gallstones in my gallbladder and had it removed, I never anticipated the changes it would bring into my life. Major…major siya teh! Para lang may nagpsabog ng top 1000 dirty secrets ko. Hehehe! I mean, it’s a not really life threatening. Since OA ako, kaya huwag na kayong mashockness.

Anyway, in the next 43 days or less, I will be celebrating my 37th birthday…so isang malaking kavogue-gan itoh. Plus, it’s gonna be our 7th year wedding anniversary. Kaloka teh, at buo-buo pa talaga mga katawan namin at ende pa kami nagpatayan to the greatest level floor. Ende naman kaya adik noh? Hahaha! I have to say, it’s one of my biggest accomplishment in life. Promise! So, I really have so many things to be thankful and happy. Bawal na talaga magreklamo kay God. And not only that, bumait na rin by 10% ang nasasaniban kong pusa na si Taco, isama na rin natin si yaya Joy. After my operation, I was able to celebrate life with my good friends and family in Singapore, Malaysia, Bali, Philippines and the US of A. In other words, jetsetter ako…taray ko noh? Ikaw na maging kamag-anak ni Rica. Pero ende kaya isang kaluluwa na lang ako??? Scary……naku, ende pa ako Lord ready dahil wala pa akong complete set ng birkin. Of course, some things will never change, makulit pa rin si Scott at pati sa facebookng wall ko, umeksena na rin siya, si Tico nauubos pa rin ang buhok nya sa pwet dahil sa asar kay Taco, si yaya Joy, makapal pa rin ang buhok sa legs, nanay ko dakilang drama queen pa rin sama ko na si popcy and I’m still selfish, greedy, vain and overly dramatics. But that’s me and my extraordinary life. Pak! Akala mo hollywood star lang na umaariba.

Maybe it’s faith or fate (?) the brought me here in a tiny island called Singapore. But after 10 years of living, breathing, shopping and partying my life seems becoming dull each day. It’s not that I have nothing else to do..haler…this country is the most stressful to begin with…not only people loves to complained…hmnn…perhaps because we are so pampered that it makes you take for granted the little things that matters most to the dukha/commoner people..hehehehe!

So plastic….ende naman tagaHollywood si Inday. Yesterday, I was so excited because just bought a sofa that I thought would be the answer to all my unhappiness in this so called my diva life. We all know I’m a material girl. So, don’t get shock and please I don’t need your pity. I don’t have pathetic life, I’m just bored. I am not allowed to get bored? Don’t tell me…everyday, you live happily…ano na ka drugs? Huwag kang mag inarte. Dahil I’m sure one way or another, we all feel this way. Magkapatotoo ka Greta?

Today, my episode…bored…bored…bored! Is this depression? Hmnn..oh…it’s more depressing to part with my shoes and bags. So, therefore I conclude..it’s definitely NOT. Although, I can’t help wondering if my end is near to the mental….not institution…haler! …perhaps..mental breakdown or another phase of my drama mode? I’m usually hyper all the time but of course, because I’m sick…sakit-sakitan ito. Changes have to be made so that I still can live forever with my LV’s and Chanel. Besides, I haven’t got my ultimate dream..Birkin. Ende pa ako pwede makiparty sa heaven.

I’ve been thinking of having a new hobby…not hubby. He is still useful and recyclable. Hahaha! Not cross stitch…please! I’ve been redecorating again my house…again which of course, drives everyone nuts. Even my pussy cats are under a lot of stress. Then, planning to renew my love of photography or perhaps…repaint my furniture…hmmnnn…I don’t know how they connect to each other. But what I know, I can’t let this misery affects me because it so unglam. Sayang naman ang botox teh. Besides, I lost already 6lbs. I can be a porn star again…hahaha!

We go through this cycle in life that we wish someone could find us an answer. Nagoogle ko na rin siya. We search why there is an emptiness we feel inside. And we shouldn’t startle…why? Haler! Simply that’s what you called living. If dead…you don’t have empathy kaya. When we feel down, we search for something, heaven knows what it is. We want our friends and love ones to understand us. How could they? Our minds is not on the same hard drive and memory. It will take awhile to mastered life…errr…maybe not ever…but I know, somewhere out there…a big sale is waiting for me. Full stop….abangan na lang ang susunod na kabanata.

Good morning sabado!

Finally I updated my blog after 6 months. It’s been few hundred years since I wrote something here. And guess what? Few months ago, my blog…yes…this blog was been hacked by some freak batman who have nothing to do with their life. Or perhaps I’m getting too famous that the fugly people can’t stand it. Tell me friend, is it really a crime to be beautiful??? Hahaha! Pero promise…I was scared…freak out…. mentally challenge when I opened my blog….and….enter the diva….”This blog was been hacked by Hukba Laban sa mga Dyosa”. Feeling ko asa movie ako. Panick gallore to the highest level of the universe. Vaklush! Parang kasing Bang-Bang gang ang eksena. Baka magreport ako sa presinto. Ende pa ako ready noh! Ikaw ba naman pasokan ng mga guerilla…at hindi pa handa ang outfit….naiwan sa US of A. Ginagawa pa ni fafa Marc Jacobs. Hahaha!

Anyways, what matters now, I’m back to my own haven (?), wearing my new fabulous sho-es. This is why I love US of A. Despite the agony I went through. Yeah! They tortured me, I am in so much pain…Can you imagine a life shopping in a mall where all your favorite designers from Kate Spade, Michael Kors, BeBe, Burberry, Armani to Calvin Klein is just few inches away yet you only have have 6 hours to shop? I think Fafe doesn’t love me anymore…huhuhuhu! Really!? I know I am not the best wife in the world but I always feed him with all his favorite food. I would even carry and put that stinky friend dumplings in my LV bag. Isn’t that enough? Hahaha! So yeah! I was so disheartened of the turn of events. Why can’t I just have everything? Is it too much to ask? *cut*….take two…hahahaha

Next please….another reason why I haven’t writing that much because of my busy schedule…work, parties, shopping, traveling, charity…Girl! It’s tiring to be this fabulous…..hahahaha! Ok, serious na ito, after our trip in US last Christmas. I was been feeling sick all these time. Ende sakit-sakitan. Totoong sickness gallore talaga. It’s like week after week, I have to visit my doctor. Para na nga kaming may affair. I was getting frustrated because 6 months ago, I was full of life. I’m can do a lot of things and always on the go. Para lang nakavalium lagi. Then I woke up one day, which I thought was a simple flu..then the next week something else again. I can feel something is not right, but I’m Ria, if you can’t fix it…buy it.

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